May is here! May used to be my favorite month of the year because it’s my son’s birthday, mother’s day, plus my birthday. Pretty cool, right?
Well, now May includes the day my mom passed away. It was actually 3 days before my birthday. Every year when May rolls around, I struggle with reliving the days leading up to that awful day. If you’ve been following me for a while, you might already know the full story of how she passed. I wrote a blog post about it a couple of years back which I’m not going to share because it’s really, really sad.
Every Mother’s Day, mom and I would spend the day together. We would go to her favorite restaurant to have dinner, go shopping, and then I would sit with her in her living room and watch her favorite shows. The simple things meant so much to her. The quality time that we spent together meant so much to me. To both of us.
As I get older, I look like her more and more with each passing year. I always say this, but I’m so happy that I have her face and her big smile.
Instead of wallowing in sadness this May, I am going to do something different. I am going to celebrate my mother’s life, my life and the people close to my heart.
I’ll continue to honor her life with the life that I’m living. I always remind myself that there is so much to be grateful for.
NICKY ANN 